BAAAAHHHH!!! I officially have a crush on someone and his name is...(drumroll please)...Adam Young (the lead singer of Owl City).
Now let me set some things straight: I am not the kind of girl who has crushes on celebrities. period. I find it very silly BUT everything changed when I read the Owl City blog. OOOHEEEMGEEE!!!In one of his posts titled, "The Great Regret," he talks about how he prays for the woman he will marry someday and that the desires of her heart are being heard by God...blah, blah, blah...and all I am thinking is PICK MEEEE!!!! Isn't that so sweet?! So I ask you, how could I not have a crush on him?
I understand that the chances of me ever even meeting this man are very slim but still, I can dream right? So as soon as I read his blog then I looked for tickets because I knew that I just needed to be front row and then he would see me and he would know that we were meant to be and... then I slapped myself, well mentally.
It hit me all at once, God has a man out there who is praying for me at this very second and someday, when my heart is healed and I am so lost in the Lord that I don't feel that aching loneliness anymore, we will meet. Until then I have decided to go with the idea that this future husband of mine is on his way but his flight is just very delayed.
Why do we do that to ourselves? If I look/ act like this then he will really love me/want me. But the man you are meant to be with will love you for your interior beauty because, after all, that is all that matters. My favorite quote peratining to relationships is, "A girl's heart should be so lost in the Lord, that a man need seek Him to find her."
I decided about a year ago that I did not need/want another relationship until my relationship with the Lord was where I wanted it to be. I now depend on the Lord for love and acceptance instead of the opposite sex and it has made all of the difference. I no longer get jealous when my friends are dating these wonderful guys because I know that mine is out there and when I am ready we will begin our lives together. Don't get me wrong, sometimes Satan tries to attack me with idea that I will be single for the rest of my life. I feel strongly that the Lord would not have put the desire for marriage on my heart if it were not in His plan for my life.
Now, it is time to start praying for my husband...wish me luck!
